Posted on Wednesday, December 01, 2010
I had a momentary pre mid-life crisis freak out today. Twenty-nine days until i am twenty-six. i figure that i should get my mid life crisis out of the way now, so when i'm rolling into my mid thirties to forties, i will be a content and solid character.
there is a typical flow that most lives follow. i see it with my family and i see it with a lot of my friends. mid twenties is a time to work out where you want to be heading and you learn all you can and work the long hours to get there. you still have the innocence of youth on your side, and most mistakes are just another notch in your belt. they don't cement the flow, but etch out the diversions along the way like the rings inside a tree. parents start becoming fallible and you can now understand what it must have took to get you here... safe but armed with critical thought.
i often wonder what older people were doing at my age. i wonder about their mindset and what they had achieved. i think about marriage and wonder if i will be one of the lucky ones. i wonder what thoughts i will cradle in my mind when i think back to this time.
i am always checking under my feet to make sure i am on the right track. i just don't believe in the whole two steps forward, one step back crap. always evolving, never static.
so these are my last days of laying claim to the 'early twenties' collective. i'm moving up and starting to question my non-liberal use of anti-aging cream. looking forward to the stories behind those wrinkles. of love and love lost and all the magic in between.
the mind has been made up: i am getting a VW convertible in the new year.